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If you’re new, let me tell you about Christy’s Corner. Guest authors are invited to share their secrets for surviving all the seasons of life. Some of our previous guests have been: Patti Adams, Tom Adams, Beth Forbus, Jason Forbus, Erin Poci, Suzanne Makshanoff, Jeremy Nueman and Wendy Speake.
Today we’re welcoming back my dear friend, Veronica Giamanco!
Have you been through a season in life that seemed endless? Maybe you’re in a winter season of life right now. Is your heart aching with frigid fear that your dreams will never come true? Are you being pelted by an unrelenting storm of pain or loss? If so, Veronica’s story will inspire you to sing in the winter rains by standing under the umbrella of God’s promises.
The Anniversary Gift by Veronica Giamanco
On my fourteenth wedding anniversary, I took another pregnancy test. I gave myself a pep talk, Wouldn’t the best anniversary gift be telling my husband I’m pregnant?! In all my years of charting, testing and after five IVF cycles, I had never been two weeks late. Still knowing the truth terrified me. But after years of nothing but negative pregnancy tests this time seemed different. So I scheduled an appointment to get a pregnancy test.
The day of my appointment, memories of my negative pregnancy tests taunted me. Somehow I needed to lift my eyes off my circumstances and onto God’s truth. Fighting back tears and nausea, I reached out to some dear friends and asked for prayer. They started praying immediately. And I’m confident every song I heard driving to-and-from my doctor’s office was an answer their prayers. God hand-picked these songs for me—and now, I’ll share them with you.
After I cranked up the volume to my favorite Christian radio station, I heard “Christ In Me” by Jeremy Camp. I hummed along to these lyrics:
Done with what holds me down the things I once was chasing after
Throw off these heavy chains that I have let become my master
So now I’m running free into an ocean of mercy unending
I added my own verse, “I am not chasing after a baby. I am chasing after God. These test results will not define me or my joy.”
Jeremy Camp sang the next verses.
So I will fix my eyes, ‘Cause you’re my source of life
I need the world to see that it’s Christ in me, that it’s Christ in me
And I added some other verses, “I may not have life in my womb but Christ, my source of life, is in me. I don’t need the world to see my swollen belly, I need the world to see Christ in me.
On the highway, my car engine hummed while I sang along to an old favorite called “You Never Let Go” by Matt Redman. Singing these words reminded me God would hold me through the appointment, through the waiting for the results, through the words spoken to me by the medical staff, whether harsh or sympathetic.
I sang this refrain by heart:
Oh no, You never let go
Through the calm and through the storm
Oh no, You never let go
In every high and every low
Oh no, You never let go
Lord, You never let go of me
The book of Psalm teaches us that God inhabits the praises of His people (Psalm 22:3). I experienced this as I worshipped God in my car—the indescribable presence of God surrounded me. I parked my car and checked-in. Just as God selected the songs on my radio station, He arranged more meaningful details at my appointment like the name of my nurse and my room number. And as I awaited my results, I remembered all those songs from earlier.
The results finally arrived. My eyes blurred as I read the word, “NEGATIVE.” I sighed and thought, Fourteen years. Another anniversary. Another negative pregnancy test. Then all-of-a-sudden potential joy became potential crisis. After more tests, they told me to go home and follow up with my doctor later. I started to worry. If the pregnancy test is negative, what in the world could be causing my “pregnancy” symptoms? My mind raced with endless possibilities—including cancer.
I hurried to my car. A familiar song played on the radio, but I heard it in a new way. I comforted myself with a lyrical prayer based on the song “Magnify” by We Are Messengers. I prayed, “I have been trying to make sense of my sorrow. I wanted to know what God was revealing to me in this medical journey. This has to be more than another dead end. Jesus is what I need. I don’t need to everything this life has to offer, such as pregnancy, I just need more of Jesus. So it’s okay God, take it all away. In the process, I will magnify God’s name. He is my rock and my refuge. He is all I need. He comforts me. He never leaves me.”
Many more songs played during my drive home. Micah Tyler’s song called “Never Been A Moment” reminded me of God’s great love for me. And I sang to the One who holds the stars and holds my heart in the song called “Stars” by Skillet.
Now we’re back to where this story began. On my fourteenth wedding anniversary, I took another pregnancy test. It was negative, but I focused on the positives. And by God’s grace and answered prayers, I received an unexpected anniversary gift—the present of God’s presence as I praised Him. So whatever lies before me, as Matt Redman sings in “10,000 Reasons”, let me be singing when the evening comes. Will you sing with me?
The sun comes up
It’s a new day dawning
It’s time to sing Your song again
Whatever may pass
And whatever lies before me
Let me be singing
When the evening comes
Meet Veronica Giamanco:
Veronica recently celebrated her 14th year anniversary with her soul mate, Joe. They live in Southern California. After sorrow-upon-sorrow from failed IVF cycles and failed adoption attempts, Veronica and her husband never lost hope. Instead they chose to sing in the winter rains by standing under the umbrella of God’s promises. Thankfully, their wintertime-of-waiting passed and their spring has come. Veronica and her husband are the proud parents of two adopted children.
Now is the perfect time to read any articles you’ve missed. We’ve had some amazing writers on The Write Season, such as:
- Christy Nueman – THE STORY OF A.B.I.D.E. MINISTRY
- Wendy Speake – ON CHRIST THE SOLID PLATFORM I WRITE
- Erin Poci – LEFT TO OUR OWN “DEVICES”
- Jason Forbus – A HUSBAND COPES WITH INFERTILITY
- Patti Adams – STILL BIRTH
- Beth Forbus – THE STORY OF SARAH’S LAUGHTER
- Suzanne Makshanoff – WAITING FOR A GIFT
“There is a time for everything, and a S E A S O N for every activity under the heavens…” Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NIV, emphasis added)
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